The Answer

The gifts in my life; to breathe and to be able to sit down and know that I’m breathing. To be able to sit down and just observe; to be able to just sit while everyone runs around in the hustle of subsistence is a gift. To be able to take out time knowing that you are not losing anything; knowing that you are provided for is a gift. To be able to hear, see, speak and sing. The ability to walk, shake hands and punch people. To be able to sit down in one place for five minutes and not care about what I’m wearing, whether I have a pimple on my face or whether my hand is hurting, whether I have some undone work or whether I have not called my parents, whether I am a success or a failure. The ability to sit down for five minutes and observe myself in a state that disregards physical, spiritual and worldly worries is a gift. To be able to be in a place where life and my life are nothing but I am everything, is a gift.

Hindsight- hindsight is a gift. I can see my past; I can see what I used to be and I can see what I am now. I can connect the dots and see how I got to where I am. To be able to do this is a gift. To be able to smile and think about the days when my mother used to drive me around in her car is a gift. To be able to travel in detail through all those years to this moment where it is I that drives her is a gift. To be able to think about this and smile is a gift. From the darkness comes light; to be able to look into the darkness of my past and pull out from that darkness the light of my present and the light of my future is a gift. To be able to see where I am coming from know where I am, and choose where I am going is a gift. To be able to know that there will always be darkness is a gift.

Knowledge – knowledge is a gift. To be able to know is a gift. To be able to know how the ant walks and why it is running all over my cubes of sugar is a gift. To be able to know that I know is a gift. Wisdom – wisdom is a gift. To be able to know why the ant does what it does and learn from it is a gift. To be able to use my knowledge to make myself a better person and affect other people for good is a gift. To be able to know that good and bad is not black and white is a gift; a gift of wisdom. To be able to know that I define my good and I define my bad is a gift. To be able to distinguish lies from truth is a gift. To be able to only want to tell the truth is a gift. To be able to tell lies is a gift. To be able to reflect and criticize myself is a gift. To be able to think about all these things is a gift.

The greatest gift of all is the thing that brings all these things together in one moment. It is the phenomenon that can bring me into that state where nothing else matters and I can just view all these things as a motion picture. It is the power that can remove me from my present and pull me back in the past. It is the power that can push me into the future. It is the power that can make all these tenses my present. It is addictive and it is brief; it usually only lasts four minutes. It is a short rush like cocaine and it is also a long high like marijuana, but it is also nothing like these drugs because it does not harm me. It heals my wounds and it reorganizes my mind. It shows me that my life and everything in it is a gift and it sends me into the world a serene and peaceful being. I can walk through the rubble that is life and remain clean, untouched and safe from its toxicity. I can walk through the valley of the shadow of death and not flinch. It is a gift that I know not where this power comes from; it is a gift that it is a mystery to me. It brings all these thoughts together in one moment and that is its power.

It allows me to wield it but in the end it is my wielder. It uses me to send this message to you and any that will listen. It is music and it is the answer.